Seeking out information through others can be helpful at times when a fresh, detached perspective is in need, but I try not to grow too reliant on others opinions. I think it is far more important to learn how to make my own connections to divine guidance and find answers to my own questions, rather than relying on someone else's interpretation.
It may sound strange, but I keep what you could call , a dream journal. When I have a question I simply write it down in my book, go to sleep, and receive an answer in my dreams, which I also document. I have had great success with this process in the past, but recently I might have crossed the line when I questioned my answer to my own question.
It all started a few weeks back when my gatekeeper, whose task is to act as a guardian and protect me from unwanted energies entering my consciousness during my dream work, decided to allow access, and my guardianship, to a beautiful, but very rambunctious baby boy. He's been in practically all of my dreams for quite a while now, to the point of concern, which led me to finally pose the question the other night. "Why do I keep dreaming about this baby?" The answer came from my recently departed grandma while having a meal at a Chinese restaurant. "Since you won't be going on that vacation, we think you should have a baby, in December." As you can imagine, I woke up somewhat distraught, and hungry for kung pao chicken.
Considering that I have not had relations with anyone in over four years, I probably shouldn't be too concerned with my beloved post mortem grandmas response. Maybe grandma is ready to incarnate again, or, for all I know, this could just be some sort of payback for my intolerant retort made at the butch, overly pierced face NARAL representative that unwillingly visited my home last month.
What I do know, is that at least for now, and as much as I want to know, I will lay the question of questioning my answer to the question already answered, to rest. For now. Also, for the entire upcoming month of April, just to be safe, keep all penises outside a twenty yard diameter of my vagina.
